A Candle in the Wind by Mary Imlay Taylor

IT was late in the afternoon before Diane returned to the apartment. After Overton's departure she had found it impossible to stay there alone all through the hours that must pass while she waited her husband's return. The crowd and hurry and noise in the streets had helped her to pass through that inward crisis which had meant so much to her. Silence and solitude would have beaten down upon her like rain and drenched her with misery; but out in the open air, with that upward glimpse of the sun which is all that the narrow streets permit to a New Yorker, she began to rouse herself to face the days and weeks that would lengthen out into years before her, if she lived, and would bring no material uplift, unless -- the thought shot through her mind as a ray of sunshine sometimes penetrates a black forest -- unless her husband suffered some change of heart.

Something in him, something vague and elusive, but still tantalizing her with a fleeting vista of change, had perplexed her. But his attitude had been the same; it had been the same up to the moment when he had decided that he would not use the loan.