What We Accept Without Wanting To

Oh, what longing for no, no, no, no.

How much life we spend or lose yes yes yes yes yes yes.

We were down in the mud that time and when we fell from the star further, among buffaloes on fire with clashing horns, when we couldn't move nearer or further, the moment of indecision which corrodes with the slow seep of acid, finally, in every sense, we lost our will and there we stayed, alive but dead.

Because it's always to save

Pedro and his grandmother from suffering- by that standard we were measured all life long from our eyes to our heels and by these lights we were judged; and later, with no respect at all, they told us what entrails we should sacrifice, what bones, teeth and veins they would graciously remove from our worn-out skeletons.

And so that Thursday passed when, among the rocks, we had no feet and later no tongue.

We had used it up without knowing, we said yes without knowing how and among yeses and yeses we were left lifeless among the living and they all looked at us and thought us dead.

We didn't know what could happen because the others seemed to agree about being alive and there we were without ever being able to say no, no, or perhaps no, or ever no, or always no no no no no no.