Honeycomb by Dorothy M. Richardson — Read

When Miriam got out of the train into the darkness she knew that there were woods all about her. The moist air was rich with the smell of trees -- wet bark and branches -- moss and lichen, damp dead leaves. She stood on the dark platform snuffing the rich air. It was the end of her journey. Anything that might follow would be unreal compared to that moment. Little bulbs of yellow light further up the platform told her where she must turn to find the things she must go to meet. "How lovely the air is here. ". The phrase repeated itself again and again, going with her up the platform towards the group of lights. It was all she could summon to meet the new situation. It satisfied her; it made her happy. It was enough; but no one would think it was enough.

But the house was two miles off. She was safe for the present. Throughout the journey from London the two-mile drive from the station had stood between her and the house. The journey was a long solitary adventure; endless; shielded from thoughts of the new life ahead and leaving the past winter in the Gunnersbury villa far away; vanquished, almost forgotten. She could only recall the hours she had spent shivering apathetically over small fires; a moment when she had brought a flush of tears to her mother's eyes by suddenly telling her she was maddeningly unreasonable, and another moment alone with her father when she had stood in the middle of the hearthrug with her hands behind her and ordered him to abstain from argument with her in the presence of her mother -- "because it gives her pain when I have to show you that I am at least as right as you are" -- and he had stood cowed and silent. Then the moment of accepting the new post, the last days of fear and isolation and helplessness in hard winter weather and the setting off in the main line train that had carried her away from everything -- into the spring. Sitting in the shabbily upholstered unexpectedly warm and comfortable main line train she had seen through the mild muggy air bare woods on the horizon, warm and tawny, and on the near copses a ruddy purpling bloom. Surprise had kept her thoughtless and rapt. Spring -- a sudden pang of tender green seen in suburban roadways in April. one day in the Easter holidays, bringing back the forgotten summer and showing you the whole picture of summer and autumn in one moment... but evidently there was another spring, much more real and wonderful that she had not known -- not a clear green thing, surprising and somehow disappointing you, giving you one moment and then rushing your thoughts on through vistas of leafage, but tawny and purple gleamings through soft mist, promising... a vision of spring in dim rich faint colours, with the noisy real rushing spring still to come... a thing you could look at and forget; go back into winter, and see again and again, something to remember when the green spring came, and to think of in the autumn... spring; coming; perhaps spring was coming all the year round. She looked back, wondering. This was not the first time that she had been in the country in March.