The narrative follows the introspective journey of a young man grappling with anxiety, self-doubt, and the pressures of adolescence. At sixteen, he experiences debilitating dreams and physical symptoms that reflect his inner turmoil. He feels inadequate compared to peers like Frank Drummer, who excels academically, while he struggles to recall what he has learned. His nervousness manifests in stammering during recitations, heightening his sense of failure. The protagonist's worries lead him to seek help through Dr. Weese's advertisement, which resonates with his fears and reinforces his belief in his impending demise. This preoccupation with death and illness consumes him, culminating in a cough that ultimately alleviates his dreams. The resolution comes as he finds peace in sleep, free from the nightmares that once plagued him, suggesting a transition from anxiety to a more tranquil state of being. The work explores themes of youth, mental health, and the quest for identity, illustrating the profound impact of internal struggles on one's perception of self and reality. The protagonist's journey reflects a universal experience of growing pains, marked by the tension between aspiration and the fear of inadequacy. The resolution hints at the possibility of overcoming these challenges, as he finds solace in the simplicity of existence by the river, symbolizing a return to a more peaceful state of mind.
By Edgar Lee Masters · First published 1916 · Genre: Poetry, Literary Fiction, Autobiographical