A group of astronauts embarks on a historic mission to Mars, but during their journey, they experience an inexplicable and overwhelming sensation referred to as "the Feeling." This sensation manifests as a deep sense of unease and longing, which grows stronger as they travel further from Earth. The crew, consisting of Captain Maxon, Lieutenant Vaughn, Lieutenant Ragan, and communications officer Walraven, attempts to identify the source of this Feeling, suspecting it may be linked to the ship's psionic power plant. As they delve into their emotions, Vaughn articulates a sense of desolation that transcends mere homesickness, describing a profound fear and a feeling of being uprooted. Ragan, a soldier without strong ties to any place, acknowledges a desire to return to Earth, while Walraven expresses a deep connection to his homeland, feeling that he is part of the land itself. The crew theorizes that their isolation in space may be triggering a primal response, suggesting that humanity is inherently connected and cannot thrive in isolation. Despite their efforts to understand and combat the Feeling, it intensifies, leading them to a critical decision. They realize that they must complete their mission to Mars, but the emotional toll weighs heavily on them. Ultimately, they manage to put the ship into orbit around Mars, but the experience of the Feeling leads to a moment of transcendence for Walraven, who feels a sudden return to his childhood home. The narrative culminates in the revelation that while the crew members can return to their homes, Ragan, who lacks a familial connection, is left behind in a metaphorical sense. The story concludes with a reflection on the challenges of human connection and the psychological implications of space travel, leaving the reader to ponder the limits of conditioning and the essence of belonging.
By Roger Dee Aycock · First published 1970 · Genre: Science Fiction, Psychological Fiction, Adventure