The Blue Castle by Lucy Maud Montgomery — Read

Valancy looked dully about her old room. It, too, was so exactly the same that it seemed almost impossible to believe in the changes that had come to her since she had last slept in it. It seemed-- somehow--indecent that it should be so much the same. There was Queen Louise everlastingly coming down the stairway, and nobody had let the forlorn puppy in out of the rain. Here was the purple paper blind and the greenish mirror. Outside, the old carriage- shop with its blatant advertisements. Beyond it, the station with the same derelicts and flirtatious flappers.

Here the old life waited for her, like some grim ogre that bided his time and licked his chops. A monstrous horror of it suddenly possessed her. When night fell and she had undressed and got into bed, the merciful numbness passed away and she lay in anguish and thought of her island under the stars. The camp-fires--all their little household jokes and phrases and catch words--their furry beautiful cats--the lights agleam on the fairy islands--canoes skimming over Mistawis in the magic of morning--white birches shining among the dark spruces like beautiful women's bodies-- winter snows and rose-red sunset fires--lakes drunken with moonshine--all the delights of her lost paradise. She would not let herself think of Barney. Only of these lesser things. She could not endure to think of Barney.