
The poem reflects on the speaker's initial arrival at a place filled with hope and anticipation. The heart races at the sight of a beautiful landscape, suggesting a deep emotional connection to the environment. As the speaker descends the hill for the last time, a sense of finality and loss emerges. The realization of change, previously unnoticed, becomes stark in this twelfth year, marking a significant transformation in the speaker's feelings. Hope, once vibrant, has diminished, replaced by a recognition that health and cheerfulness are transient. The speaker acknowledges the possibility of loving other landscapes in the future, yet there is an underlying sorrow for what has been lost. The poem conveys a sense of inevitability regarding the passage of time and the evolution of emotions, suggesting that love and attachment can grow through experience, even as parting evokes a more profound response than initial encounters. The interplay of hope, change, and the bittersweet nature of memory encapsulates the essence of the speaker's journey.
By Edward Thomas · First published 1909 · Genre: Poetry, Lyric, Nature · 184 words
When first I came here I had hope, Hope for I knew not what. Fast beat My heart at sight of the tall slope Or grass and yews, as if my feet Only by scaling its steps of chalk Would see something no other hill Ever disclosed. And now I walk Down it the last time. Never will My heart beat so again at sight Of any hill although as fair And loftier. For infinite The change, late unperceived, this year, The twelfth, suddenly, shows me plain.
Hope now -- not health, nor cheerfulness, Since they can come and go again, As often one brief hour witnesses -- Just hope has gone for ever. Perhaps I may love other hills yet more Than this: the future and the maps Hide something I was waiting for.
When First is listed on Textopian as a poem by Edward Thomas, dated 1909 CE.
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